Monday, October 1, 2007
Once Blind
Have you guys ever thought that you were alone? That you are not needed and it is better to die? To tell you the truth... I have. At some times at some point I felt that I was alone and everybody was against me. I felt so sad, I wanted to kill himself, I even went to the extent that I would injure myself to "ease the pain". When I think about it today...I tell myself how stupid I was that I thought like that. Anyway, I've changed. Before I was filled with pride. Now slowly I try to become more humble. My frequent training area? During training practice, a lot of people are better than me. I want to grow and be better. Of course it was never easy to abandon your pride. But if that pride of yours is the reason why people hate you? Then why not change. Being humble starts even when you want to improve your skill. All I did was close my eyes and just hope that I did the right thing. I pray to God and ask for his guidance and protection. I follow his words even trying to resist when temptation or persecution rises. It's not easy to change but if you pray and do your role then expect to see results... good results.